It's been a difficult Christmas this year, don't get me wrong I can't express how blessed we have been from family and friends. I didn't plan on being home for Christmas but Phil is struggling beyond words, so I took the weekend off. Cancer doesn't care about timing, or anything else for that matter.
He has a new pain this weekend and is walking even slower this morning. It's on his back but more on the left part of his side. Go to hell Cancer. I am finished with you and tired of your hardships and hell you put my husband through.
I am trying to get him to go to the emergency room this morning, but he is having nothing to do with that. I can't say that I blame him, but I can't bare to see him suffer like this either. His beautiful hazel eyes are filled with pain and suffering. I emailed his nurse practioner this morning, I guess we will wait and see what she wants us to do.
I am done with caner this year, this day, this hour, and this moment. I think I am at my breaking point again, and I am ready to put on my boxing gloves and whoop some cancer ass. I Wish it was that easy because I wouldn't need any special training to be a professional boxer this morning. I am positive I would get it done the first round. I am left feeling helpless, left feeling out of control, and lost in my emotions. Cancer I hate you, today you have won this round but tomorrow I will fight again for him.
Hoping all of you had a wonderful Christmas and wishing you the Happiest, Healthiest, New Year. Thanks for you all for giving me the best Christmas present, praying for Phil daily.
You can and will get through this hurdle just like you have done so many countless times before. I love you both very much and you are always in my prayers and my heart.
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