We have been traveling on the Myeloma Roller Coaster this week and it's one of the worst rides we've been on. It has drained us of all our energy, emotions, and is terrorizing our home with pain. The mind numbing emotions are so exhausting to ride and it's only just begun.
We have received news that Phil's blood work has showed that Myeloma is revealing it's ugly face again in the man I love. It started with chest pain in which they thought, "it's just a pulled muscle". They had no reason to think anything else because he recently completed a bone survey. Those results showed nothing abnormal in the area of his new pain. However, because of this pain being so intense at this past appointment, his doctor decided to send him for another xray. We completed it, and really thought nothing of it. For you see xrays are, believe or not, just "routine" with Myeloma. Nothing could have prepared us for the results that we received today.
I anxiously answered the phone today from Phil's Nurse Practitioner, thinking it would be a routine call. Yet I was stopped in my tracks from the unwanted news. I spent an hour aimlessly walking in a store attempting to process the information. The results from the xray now show that Phil has six new tumors on his ribs that will require radiation. One of the ribs is broken from Myeloma eating away at the bone like it has every right to be there. I can not explain the pain that this brings to me. He is such a wonderful man who doesn't deserve anymore set backs.
The surgery will now be postponed until January, or until the cancer is under control again. Yet, the infection on his back is getting worse. It's a juggling mess to do what is best. They have decided to begin the radiation process to his ribs tomorrow, along with the addition of doubling up on his chemotherapy. Once again we are locked in and set to cruise control on the Myeloma Roller Coaster, and it's a ride I wish for no one.
I am currently at a loss for words, but I still know God is in control. It's amazing to me how when we have doubt, fear, financial needs, exhaustion, or any other need when dealing with Myeloma, that God steps in and provides. Your continued prayers are uplifting and welcomed as we are faced with yet another difficult fight against this disease. Please also include in your prayers, our daughters. As this news is discouraging for them, and they worry about their daddy for whom they love so very, very much. Thank you, and God Bless.
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